I try to laugh about it

I recieved a SPAM email from someone who wanted to know more about me.They sent me a list of questions that I will try in all honesty to answerAll I ask in return is that they answer and everyone else answer the same questions and email it back to me. It's a fair trade.some of these questions are v. personal. I cant believe I am going to contribute to this.But I am bored at work, trying to get away from typing notes

what's on you ipod right now?
i am listening to my ipod right now as i write this,it's on shuffle but at this moment
Holiday By Irving

what's in your purse?
all though i am a bit of a purse collector of sorts.I don't actually carry one around.I have more of a bag.
the contents of my bag are as follows in no particular order, only because there is no order inside my bag.
one wallet that contains the appropriate ID. one bank card, one credit card, 3 library cards
( i moved around alot), picture of my dead cat
one PDA, that i am still learning, it was supposed to take away the use of hundreds of post it notes all over the house.
one case of altoids breath mints,"fresh breath is a priority in my life" quick who said that?
one check book
one cell phone, turned off
one hp digital camera
one cannon sure shot digital camera
one cannon Z155 35mm camera
four rolls of undevelpoed film
two rolls of ready to use film
one 2005 standard diary calendar
one mini moleskin journal to write ideas down.
one pair of glasses
one pair of sunglasses
set of car keys
one uncashed paycheck
seven writing pens
one book, Billy Dead
a bunch of pieces of paper and various reciepts
a travel packet of hand wipes
and usually my ipod but I am listening to it right now.
So there you have it does that tell you anything about me?

What's on your night stand?
read my past blog entries and you will hear all about it.

When was the last time to spoke with your parents and what did you speak about?
When you say speak? does that include listening as they spoke to me or actually having words come out my mouth? My mother 4 months ago, she called to yell at me cause i had left a message on her machine asking if she was alright as i hadnt heard from her in months and she was not returning my calls or anyone else in the family.She yelled and said I want her keeper and she thought i was a horrible daughter, to her credit I proably was a little shit. She said she didnt need help with anything and that when she wanted to talk she would call.She then hung up on me and I havent heard from her since and i havent called her either. To make something clear, my mother is sick (in the head, little chemical embalance) and as long as she takes medication she doesnt slip down the dark path of depression and think bad thoughts..I know she is ok cause she calls my sister all the time to complain about me. So as long as she is ok I feel ok .
My dad, i spoke to two months ago.He took money from me and exchange for a family piano that was to be delivered over a month ago. I havent heard from him since and i havent seen the piano and nor ever will. I think he is back in jail.Probably due to failing a drug test since after a year and a half he decided to break his soberiety and start drinking which in his case always leads back to doing drugs.History repeats itself with my dad, he doesnt learn.The phone conversation was short, something about how he would be here tomorrow with the piano and he would fix my installation in my studio.That was over a month ago.

Do you eat meat?
oh ..well yes I do, please dont bombard me with vegetarian things now. I eat meat yes, i will make no excuses. I eat red meat once a month and I eat chicken, hate fish, not a big pork person, and everything else is to complicated to make.so yes chicken and red meat once a month. I could tell you about how I hate chickens and Turkey cause as a child i was attacked by one and ever since then I just havent cared about them.But then all the veggies would say i was attacked by them because i ate them.But that doesnt fly with me cause I grew up in a vegetarian household so i was a vegetarian all the way till high school.Blame public schooling

ever had a one night stand?
nope, just never have been that type of girl.I slept with a friend once but it was awful and we ended up being better friends because it was laughable.That was ages ago though, I was young like 19 ,he moved away years ago.

what was the worst thing about your childhood?
the nightmare of it all. i actually am not going to get into my childhood.Years of therapy wasnt worth the money to be reminded of it all.

what was the best thing about your childhood?
Redcowboy boots, pigtails, greyghost sting ray bike, being able to stay up all night,having a drive in as my backyard and the river as my front yard.All the nightmares that made me stronger.

How old where you when you had your first heartbreak?
six years old

Did you have an imaginary friend?
AWE! the best question, yes i did his name was charles. I would wake up every day to an astounding
Hello Charles. The name became a nickname my grandfather used to call me later on in life.But I had actually gotten the name from him as he used to call everyone Charles as a term of endearment for some odd reason.

We're you popular in school?
I think maybe more in grade school, in middle schol I was the new kid and in highschool I was just one of many.Niether cool kid or Geeky kid, just the slightly weird girl..

What is the best/worst thing that has happened to you in the last 6months?
Hmm, the best is waking up every morning next to Mish...Suckers!
New friends that inspire and create interesting converstions. Contacting old friends.
The worst, the death of Jason, one of my dearest friends.

What is the best advice you have ever been given?
The world is going to laugh at you, so be the first to laugh and laugh the loudest.
my gramps
Don't live a luckewarm life
mucci's gramps
Don't ever join the grownups
mish
Fight Naked
I think I made that up myself, not sure
Just be nice to each other
mish's pops

Where do you see yourself in a year?
I'm trying not to do that to myself anymore.It set's me up for too much disappointment. However, I see myself on Satuday unpacking books and putting up bookshelves.

Have you ever been in a fight?
What a fist fight? yeah like in 10th grade and I got expelled from school.
A verbal fight, yep right now,with a friend but it's over email does that count?

what fears do you have?
I have a fear of going to the bathroom in public places.This is due to many reason but mainly because of roadtrips and having to use gas station bathrooms. Also after lunch i have issue about using the bathroom, for some reason all these images pop into my mind of obease people using the toilet seat and dirty people leaving skid marks in the tiolet bowl.When I walk into a bathroom after lunch the just pop into my head and i get that gagging reflex in my stomach and i start dry heaving and if at all possible i avoid using the restroom after eating because of this. Also there is this unspoken word at work which bathroom you use for peeing in and pooping in and i sit by the pooping bathroom so i get to see all these people go in if my door is open and I cant help but imagine them in there dropping the kids off at the pool...I'm so immature I know this.

what is your favorite smell?
who are you James Lipton?

what would you rather loose, sight or smell?
Smell, wait does that mean i would loose my taste as well, dont they go hand in hand?
I choose smell, besides my allergies are so bad half the year I cant really smell much.

Leno or Letterman?
Is Jon Stewart not an option? between those two only, Letterman, wanna buy a monkey? Leno drives those stupid cars around town and they are always breaking down and fucking people will get up from their meals at cafes just to help him push his broken car.yet I get a flat tire in the middle of a road , pouring down rain, at 10:00pm on Christmas eve and all i get is people honking and yelling at me.

Did you think OJ was guilty? how about Kobe?
They were both guilty in their own ways, but yes I thought OJ did it.I thought Kobe should have known better.They both got off way to lightly.

Are you a sports fan?
I am an Arsenal supporter.As well as a Laker Girl.Every once in awhile when i want to feel patriotic I will go to a basbeall game and be nostolgic for lost past times and apple pie.

What's on your ipod now?
Everything changed by Aqualung, oh just ended now it's Gillian Welch.

Tell me two truths and one lie about yourself, so I can see if I can guess the lie about you.
Han Solo hit me with a golf cart on the studio lot once
A photo I took is on display at MOMA.
Bukowski was my neighbor and i used to watch him hit his wiife whenever they would have garage sales, selling their crap.

goodluck with that, your turn now.I have many hours at work to waste.

I'm learning to enjoy California more
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