Abstract will keep in touch, don't loose sight

As with everyone who has a blogsite. You start out fooling yourself thinking you have real interesting insightful things to write about.It goes steady for a month then you realize just how boring you are.Nothing is worse then a boring person. I can be stuck sitting next to a rude person or super sweet , or an old lady or a married man or anyone and feel as long as they are not boring things will be fine. Boring people ..man oh man.
I've been saying that alot lately

SWI, went on a train ride and it got me thinking how i have only ever been on a trian once.Maybe I should ride the rails.There's some romantic notion about the whole railway. The whole John Henry beat that steam engine and then died. A few years back the LA weekly did a whole piece about the remaining hobos that still ride the rails and i rememeber at the time it struck me as a sort of Buddist lifestyle in a way.This calmness and peaceful with the world attitude they all had.They had seen it all and done it all and now in their old age they were just enjoying the views that passed quickly by them from an open cart and the beauty of being one with nature.

Years ago I tried to get a grant for photography.Wanting to move to Romania and photograph Gypsies as the travelled town to town. I wrote this 4 page proposal about how this "species" was a dying breed as well as the whole culture of the life had been stereotyped and placed into a box labled,Do Not Trust.
The thing that stick out now with my initial photographs was their transportaion had been trains...Hmmm

I havent been to any shows this past week or so. There was nothing that jumped from the pages that screamed, See Me Now. Also I have been trying hard to get these pieces done and am just having a real hard time.
I go into the studio, i get all comfortable, I turn on the appropraite tunes.I sit and sit and I just can't focus.Not sure why.I havent hit a block .Cause I am writing all ideas down and my brain is racing.But it seems that i just stare at the wall and my hands and eyes dont work.All these photos sit unlooked at and all these ideas go unshot....moving film is calling and i can hear it ringing.

Is it because I need a holiday?

Momo has garden plans and i wished she lived closer so she could hang out in my garden and feel relaxed and make it feel like her home.She could then have a picnic and sun naked with her girlfriend and get away from her messy room mate, school tests and worries.

music of the day: supermodels are smart and they can sing and write music
Site of the week: entertainment at it's best
Crush of the month: nerds are so sexy
photographer of my week: another time and place often reminds me of just how far we've gone and how real people can be.
Designer of dream dress: yummy dresses for yummy nights
Counting down the days till I am on Holdiay .

One of the reasons that stops me from sending this site to all my "friends" is because then i couldnt talk about them. So here is a story about a friend.
This friend is someone i knew growing up and we briefly dated when we were 12/13 for about a week. I remember we met at the high school football game with all our friends and they all sat around as we walked all the way to the back of the baseball diamond just to have a kiss. Except he was too tall so I had to stand on this pipe and it was wet and as we kissed for the first time I slipped and fell and he ended up biting my lip.It was very memorable for all the wrong reasons.He was wearing a red members only coat and I was wearing an orange sweater.That right there should have been the obvious sign we would not stay together. I broke up with him a few days later cause i didnt want to go watch any of his basket ball games and well honestly i was afraid of boys and into skaterboarding anyway. In high school he was mister popular guy and all the girls liked him and he never talked with me cause i was like an episode of Freaks and Geeks one of the greatest shows ever that of course got cancelled cause they only cancel great shows and keep on telly shite reality TV that is far from real. So then years ago after school and at my high school reunion, yes i went and yes it was funny as hell and i stick to my description of it was like watching a David Lynch film of a train wreck with the soundtrack to guns and roses. At the reunion he was wearing a very black shiny gay car salesmen type shirt but because he is to skinny to have filled it out I say gay car salesman rather then just a gay man cause gay men are far more buff and in shape.He followed me around the reunion touching me and everyone knows I hate being touched unless i touch first. He waited till the end of the night to tell me he had a wife and kid even though I knew this already and couldnt believe he thought he could keep something like that a secret. At the end of the night he tried to kiss me and i pulled away quickly, shook my head and finger at him and told him to bugger off.I had no interest in him in that way.He said he was hoping to rekindle what we had in 8th grade. I had to remind him that i'm no longer 12/13 and that we had nothing in 8th grade and even if we did it didnt amount to what i had with my own husband.I didnt want to embarass him or hurt him.I just wanted to make it very clear that we are adults and as an adult married or single there would be no way i could be involved with a grown man who wears a shiny black shirt in public and wants to be taken serioulsy for it.I mean that was what i was thinking in my head.But like i said i didnt want to embarass him as he was doing a fine job of that himself. So after many emails saying sorry for that incident we are able to email every so often more less then often and say hello how is the family and all that.But not an email goes by where it is not mentioned i broke his heart when we were 12.So after saying all this i wanted to correct myself in saying from my last post that i have never dumped anyone I was the one who always was dumped. I actually dumped a boy in 8th grade because he wore red and i wore orange.

Also once there was this real cool popular girl who SWI used to like i found out recently.Well I didnt have the heart to tell him once she stayed over at my house, that brief moment i was cool in school right between family ties being cancelled (another great show cancelled) and Dance Part USA, go on admit it, you watched that show right before you watched Degrassi Junior High which is out on DVD i found out Saturday whilst browsing for horrow films.This girl, oh I dont know shall we call her Kristie well she stayed over and borrowed my kickass "Gag me with a spoon" T-shirt that I had from the early 80's and she never returned it but worse then that she had borrowed a pair of short to sleep in and in the morning I found the shorts in the garbage can in the bathroom. I thought she just had a "lady problem" turns out she had a shitting problem.She never spoke with me agian after that. I wasnt cool enough to hang out with at school but i was cool enough to have my shorts shat it and my wicked shirt stolen .Which i would be wearing right now cause the 80's are back in style so says YM magazine.