It's oh so quiet

Weekend update

Consumed Food:
Ate food,loads of it and didnt throw up once.I think finally getting out of the first trimester is a good thing when it comes to less vomitting and more eating.

Movies watched:
Harry Potter
Lemoney Snickett
A love song for Bobby Long
Crash
Madagascar
Criminal

I think that all the kids movies I am watching are turning into research for a new idea I have.Cant quite reveal yet,still brewing in my head.Not ready to talk about it.

Worked out a schedule for myself so that I can get these photos shot, processed, printed, picked and framed and hung by Exhibition Day June 28th.Now if I can stick to the schedule I just might be able to pull it off. I never really work from schedules so this is all new for me and I am hoping that in the future it will help me focus and get projects done in a timely manner so I dont end up in panic mode the day before.

All emails have been collected and written out and shot for short and will soon be ready to show.Possibly at the exhibition if I can find a way to project on the walls. I would prefer that it not be at this place but I am curious to see a reaction.But it might be too loud and no one will hear the words written and spoken. Maybe I will do it in my backyard instead.

Friends over for BBQ, sorry to hear they are moving away but almost releaved for them as well. As they were quite unhappy and needed a change and I know they will be back adn until then I will collect their mail and send off care packages.I know what they're bout to go through with their family and it is good they will be able to concetrate on the book in such an amazing place whilst going through the family issues.

Speaking of friends, I have been going throuh some major house cleaning.Some might call this nesting as I have pretty much went room to room cleaning and getting rid of everything.Simplifying it all and organizing, creating files..so not me.I was going through boxes, letters, emails, notes, cards..Funny how those you thought would be your friends for lifetimes you find yourself less and less away from them.I guess this is all part of "growing up" for lack of a better phrase,it's sad but maybe it means you are truly only meant to have ceratin people in your life only at those times.The worst part is not growing apart but falling apart. when after years they tell you what they really think of you,when they say hurtful things and wrap it all up in a nice box with a bow and whisper it thinking the words wont sting you as much. It's a bit of a joke actually them thinking that you could still be friends. After hearing all those horrible things they say to you how they feel what they think.Then end it by saying that they just wanted to get past it all and move on to a new start to a better friendship.What gets me is that if I really am those things, I WOULDNT even want to be friends with me let alone have friends like that so NO there is no way we could be friends again. Cause you made it perfectly clear that I am the type of person you hate so much. It's almost ridiculous to even defend .Because they image they have of you is so distorted and wrong and well obvioulsy they turned something that wasnt about them into something about them that it makes it just not worth it to continue.Then you realize that life goes on and it is almost sad that you realize that their life too goes on and they dont miss you.Cause you miss them cause you never thought about them in the hurtful ways they thought about you.....anyway i am just babbling talking about things most likely that happened 12 years ago or last month or maybe last week.
The point is or was..I'm not sure..life goes on and sometimes you know who your real friends are and some friends are meant only to be your friends for a week or a month or never..who knows.
I do know this for as lonely as this city gets at times.I do find myself surrounded by a small group of friends that i think of as family and some of those people dont live here or near me but I know that I trust them and that they trust me and those are the type of friendships that do last a lifetime...wow all this gooey talk, I blame my hormones.

planning summer holiday trips to London, Mystic Port CT, Oregon and various other places all before i can no longer travel.
Time is ticking till I am out of the Velvet prison..for awhile anyway but who knows.

I dont have time to do a spell check so I am sure I will hear all about my grammer and spelling mistakes.Feel free to mock me again and again.