So the wait begins

So I have finished my submision to the gallery. Now I must wait till Aug. 13th to get a response of a yes we love you or no fuck off you talentless hack.
So when I go in to pick up my work they will give me an envelope with a yes or no letter. It's worse then applying for college. I mean if it's a thick envelope is that a good sign or bad? It could be filled with comments from all the jurors, laughing , mocking or praising.It could be just a post it note on my work with a question mark???? it will be a long week for me.

I think I will be leaving work end of October.Take my 3 weeks vacation leading straight into maternity and then from there who knows if I will return? If they will take me back if I can afford to not work.It's all a bit confusing and up in the air. So I'm doing what I do best ignoring it all.

I fucked up I think, a few months back I had a photo job offer but wasnt really liking the job or offer so i passed it on to a "friend" and he was grateful and now this company calls him ALL the time for work.He's making bank , paying his bills and loving it all.What was I thinking? I should have taken the job right? Wrong? I just have one more credit card bill to pay off.Then I will be debt free. I will be able to dance around a debt free jig in my panties singing "Born Free" except I would change born to debt and it would be less of a dancing jig and more of a shuffle twist.

I heard the best quote this morning and i cant remember it now.Something about how we cant take these emmotional somethings with us and we should grow with the thought of something else...damn, the alarm went off and it was an interview on NPR and i was only half awake.But it was good.

SWI and H. are back from NYC I believe and I have not heard or seen any pictures from their adventure??

new daily blog read is silly but fun.Kind of girly but you know what, I'm a girl.
I'm trying not to take things so seriously these days.Stop thinking about it all and then rethinking it all agian.You should try it sometime