Starting a New Project...soon

My life lately seems to be dealing with all these family "dramas". So I'm trying to get away from everyone in my family and just let them all deal with their own issues while I just try and live life.Of course this is easier said then done when I'm for the first time in my whole life the "rock" of the family (scary thought). So no matter how many times I try to avoid the phone when it rings (thank God for caller ID). The phones still ring at home and at work.Then the emails start,so I have to deal with sooner or later.My sanity is on the brink of breaking though.So I turn to what saves me, making images. So I have found lately that nice walks in the early evening are what I do to stay calm and exercise so I should combine.So starting next week I will do a series called "portraits in the park" ( Actually not my own idea, so I can't take credit). I will let everyone know what time and where and if you happen to want to stop by for a portrait (in full costume, with pet, family, anything) there I will be.Just in case strangers wont let me shoot them at first. I have noticed though when they see a few people do it then they feel more at ease to let a stranger take their photo.This will be new to me as I normally don't ask I just shoot.But since this is portraits I kind of need people to pose.Which is also new to me, posing people.This will be an execrise in patience for me as well.I shoot loads of film ,really fast and tend to waste. So this will be more of a "planned"out, controlled experiment. Maybe even I will be able to get it all posted on my new upcoming website that I am planning.That is the other project, a site that has this site as well as a place to show my work and a few other things. All being worked on as i write this out.

So for now we'll see how the portraits go. If anyone has any ideas for other projects that they think would be good, let me know,maybe we could collaborate.

The truth hurts

The discussion was about the things we never admitt o anyone.Our little secrets we keep out of shame or most likely embarassment.
I've decided that it's best to be ashamed no longer.

i admit:

I believed this story happened and my excitement about him bordered on obession and I was so upset when the truth came out .
I still have a cabbage patch kid
I know all the words to Whitney Houston's "Geatest Love of All"
I bought at one time Milli Vanilli, New Kids on the Block and Vanilla Ice tapes and would put them in and dance around to them in my bedroom in front of the mirror.And though this didnt happen recently it was not so long ago.
I still have a crush on Mackenzie
I have peed in the shower.People you need to start admitting this.
I still have my security pillow from when i was a kid.I get a little freaked out when I see another person touching it.
I sucked my thumb till i was 13 years old.
I cry whenever i hear that Bonnie Rait song.

more too come

So the wait begins

So I have finished my submision to the gallery. Now I must wait till Aug. 13th to get a response of a yes we love you or no fuck off you talentless hack.
So when I go in to pick up my work they will give me an envelope with a yes or no letter. It's worse then applying for college. I mean if it's a thick envelope is that a good sign or bad? It could be filled with comments from all the jurors, laughing , mocking or praising.It could be just a post it note on my work with a question mark???? it will be a long week for me.

I think I will be leaving work end of October.Take my 3 weeks vacation leading straight into maternity and then from there who knows if I will return? If they will take me back if I can afford to not work.It's all a bit confusing and up in the air. So I'm doing what I do best ignoring it all.

I fucked up I think, a few months back I had a photo job offer but wasnt really liking the job or offer so i passed it on to a "friend" and he was grateful and now this company calls him ALL the time for work.He's making bank , paying his bills and loving it all.What was I thinking? I should have taken the job right? Wrong? I just have one more credit card bill to pay off.Then I will be debt free. I will be able to dance around a debt free jig in my panties singing "Born Free" except I would change born to debt and it would be less of a dancing jig and more of a shuffle twist.

I heard the best quote this morning and i cant remember it now.Something about how we cant take these emmotional somethings with us and we should grow with the thought of something else...damn, the alarm went off and it was an interview on NPR and i was only half awake.But it was good.

SWI and H. are back from NYC I believe and I have not heard or seen any pictures from their adventure??

new daily blog read is silly but fun.Kind of girly but you know what, I'm a girl.
I'm trying not to take things so seriously these days.Stop thinking about it all and then rethinking it all agian.You should try it sometime