Buyers Remorse

Yesterday will prove to those that I don't live the exciting life they think.

Morning: run around the lake..3.2 miles.I felt like death had pinched me afterwards.I am afriad
to admit that I am out of shape,slightly chubby,have allergies and a rather boyish hair cut that refuses to grow. I am taunted at work by many who call me Lucas
(I think this is in reference to the movie with Winona Ryder and one of the corey's)

Lunch: Moca was closed for installation so I ended up walking around downtown. They are trying so hard to gentrify it all.galleries, stores, theater, music halls, bars, lofts everywhere. what they dont understand is that just because they build it, they won't come.They move here for the stars on the side walk and the sun at the beach.There isnt anything downtown that makes them feel that Hollwood star shine,where they too could be discovered. It's a shame to say it but, build a gap and put in a few more starbucks and a Nailz "r" us and then they flock.Hoping to get a glimpse of a "celebrity". Downtown is ok as it is. Dont ruin it by having that midwest girl hop off a bus hoping to be discovered living there in your lofts.

Afternoon: a gave in and saw Million Dollar Baby.I know i said i would hold off, not able to forgive Hillary Swank for those two awful movies she did the last few years.Nothing else was on,also the fact that i had read that fucking article in The Post and knew the ending didnt help. I was to prepared,highest expectations dont work in my favor. I walked out feeling that I had missed something, like I had just been to a family reunion but only the relatives whom I didnt really know or care for showed up,forcing me to talk with them, dance with them,understand them. I get it ok, I understand, I agree, I just dont want to talk about it with you! Should I have enjoyed this movie more because everyone said I would, should. Maybe I would have if that idiot of a critic wouldnt have given away the ending, or if i didnt break my one rule about films,Never read reviews.A newspaper writer should not decide if I will enjoy a movie or not.

Evening: A friend had given me all these DVD's as gifts.I almost feel bad to admit they all sucked so I exchanged them for things i wanted. But really why would I want to open , let alone watch Catwoman and batman returns. I got a store credit of $300 dollars and i went on a guilty spree. The following list is what i ended up with.

CD's:
Lou Reed, John Cale and Nico: Le Bataclan
The very best of John Coletrane
Nina Simone: The Jazz Biography
Aimee Mann: Lost in Space Special edition, this has a great cover of Coldplays The Scientist Live
Bill Evans: You must believe in Spring
Luka Bloom: Before Sleeps comes, I dont know why I bought this other then the fact that the blurb had said it was made for those who can't sleep..that would be me.So does this mean it will put me to sleep or keep me company? The cover art is really nice as well
The London Howling Wolf Sessions: this is the deluxe edition.Normally I wouldnt spend this much on a CD but it was on sale and in a way it was free,since i never paid for the DVD's (side note, neither did my friend she gets them for free from work)
Bright Eyes: I'm wide awake in the morning, a friends recomendation
Getz/Gilberto #2 :Live at Carnegie Hall,Stan Getz Live anywhere is a good purchase.
Edith Piaf 1941-1962, I really am not sure why I picked this other then it helps me with my French and the art work was done by Kellerman.
Marilyn: The Essentials, another whim purchase.Something says to me that she was overrated and then you actually listen to her sing and you hear something that sounds like desperation mixed with hope and it gets you and you cant but help like her.Also I am reading Capote and I had read somewhere that he wanted her for the part as Holly Gollightly and something seems right about that.
Deep In a Dream, Chet Baker, I always buy Chet
Kings of Leon: Aha Shake Heartbreak, the new album is better then the old. I love rock and roll with the spirit of the 70's.
The Pogues: The Very best of, I wanted to replace my lost cd's but just wanted to get it all one one. I'm not singing for the future, I'm not dreaming of the past, I'm not talking of the first time, I never think about the last.
John Coletrane:Blue Train, Blue Note Rudy Van Gelder edition, this is one of my favotite records I own.But I dont have a reoord pplayer at work, so as you can see I needed this.
Lynard Skynard: The Millenium Collection, Fuck yeah! Free Bird live man!
Neil Young :Greatest Hits, All LIVE!
Art Blakey and the Jazz Messangers; His version of Moanin is still one of the best around
Rebekah Del Rio: Toda mi Vida,if you saw Mullholland Drive you then know that this is an amazing Latin Singer who's voice makes me cry.
Yo La tengo: And Nothing Turned Itself Inside Out, with a title like that!!!
Ben Harper and The blind Boys of Alahabama,Ben Harper is underrated, he is still that kind of talent where if people pulled their heads out they would discover him and then he would be explosive and I would be unhappy.I like to think that I might be the only one that buys his albums.
Bob Wills:For the last Time, They don't call him the King of Texas for nothing.

DVD's
There are three directors that in my humble opinion embody what film making is all about.To me they took risks, made stories believable, unbelievable, engaged, changed my thoughts and opinions, made me laugh, cry,angry, happy and all the rest of the human emotional spectrum. I have never been disapointed and they made me love films, filmmaking and at times pulled me back into life.Some may laugh but like i said this is just me.
Wim Wenders is the Master
John Cassevettes was a risktaker
Krzytof Kieslowski was a genious
I own every DVD already.So i searched for movies that would capture any sliver of them.
I ended up with
Paul Thomas Anderson's first film Hard Eight.People forget about first films and i actually prefer this film to Boogie Nights.The writing alone in this movie is enough but if you add directing and performanence, well you get a glimps into what he can do.Now if he would just get on with it.Magnolia cam out years ago, next please.
American Movie, I enjoy heartbreaking Documentaries just like the rest.But this is what it's about.Heartbreaking comedy is hard to do.
Blow Up: Antonioni is on my top ten list.
George Sluizer: The Vanishing, I really enjoy thrillers and horror.But this is just a damn good movie and The Criterion Collection is quality!
Wages of Fear: This is a movie that should be watched by everyone,I dont want to say Masterpiece,But there is a reason the box says that.
Ghost World: If you havent seen it,you suck then
The Waking Life: Richard Linklater, I dont know why I bought this.When i first saw it i was in a bad mood , hated it and fell asleep.I thought it warranted another look.I enjoy Linklater's work, ok except The Newton Boys, what was that? He takes risk and i appreciate the thought behind it all.I am giving this another look cause i hope it is as good as I think it should be? He is just a such a good writer, you tend to have to watch his movies more then once to capture it all.

Dinner: at Cobras and Matadors..mmm tapas is good, home...Then I watched the Notebook
I am a sucker for a good romance, see i am just a boring girl.