We'll make memories of things to come

Every moment must make way for one that's new.
Just before it does, remember I love you.
-Clem Snide

Happy Valentines day to my sunshine. That strange fellow who sleeps next to me ever night and steals the covers. He gave me the best gift ever, a horror movie.

I spent Sunday evening surrounded by some lady friends.Old and new, we have decided a Sunday dinner every month is a good way to embrace each other. Okay, I will be honest it was a lame attempt of having a Sex in the City moment.But we soon discovered we just were not that cool.
I have to say I can understand how woman find it hard to be friends with each other.I will let you in on a secret. It is all true, we can be real bitches, can be envious, jealous of each other, we can bite, scream and kick.BUT , we don't act this way all the time and quite frankly we do this to each other, cause we understand each other. It is easy for me to say I understand why she did this or said that.Because, I have done it as well or said it myself before. It's a cruel thing we do, and an internal game we play. we do it to ourselves and therefore we understand when others do it.Problem is we accept it and we continue too allow it.
I wanted to see if there was anything the six of us could all agree on and well for as different we all are.We finally came up with a small list.I guess that is what the great thing is though.We are all so different and that makes the bonding so much better.However, that small list we all agree on is quite ridiculous.
1: woman read Jane Austin
2: woman fancy Johnny Depp
3: at some point in our lives, we have at least
thought about being with another woman.
4: we cry at commericals.
5: The book that we have all read, "Are you there God? it's me Margaret"
sad list but true..But the greatest thing is that I know next time we meet, I get to hear all about things I know nothing about and learn from them something new. Growing daily..

The news is so much better on the BBC.. http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/uk_news/england/cumbria/4263761.stm.

I have to admit this and I wish I could say that I feel bad for believing this way.However, I dont and I dont judge those who believe different, so I hope they dont judge back. I am not a God person.I am not a higher power feeling person. I am not uncomfortable believing this way, I am however uncomfortable discussing this with people who do believe this. I feel this way about it all, whatever helps you get through your life, in good and bad times. Whatever you believe in or whoever you grasp onto to help answer questions you have, believe in it, if that is what helps you. I only say this because in the last few weeks there has been a lot of God talk in my life. Taking a hard look at what I believe and what others believe can put a strain on one's emotions..death is involuntary.
Broyard wrote: "the threat of dying ought to make people witty"
In his dying days he didnt," gloss over, evade, or sentimentalize or pietize "as most begin to do.
The fear is, as I pointed out expressing these belief's to other, why is it ok for them to express then to me but I am not allowed to express back with out fear of offending. People are programmed to not discuss religion and politics. We are told that it is wrong to not believe or support . Or maybe it is me, maybe i just want to please others. All I know is that if I am asked the right questions . I will answer with all honesty, I do not know and I do not want to know. You may say that is ignorant.But I know who I am or who I want to be and when it comes to choosing, i choose living what life i make for myself..Don't live a lukewarm life, as i was told once, and it wasnt told to me by any god, guru, teacher,spiritual advisor..just a person, a plain old friend.

A new movie has been added onto the movie list,rent it watch it , give me your thoughts..
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0059084/
Darling, directed by John Schlesinger, staring Julie Christie

I picked up this book a few weeks back.Everynight I make my way through another artist
Woman artist of the 20th and 21st century.
I'm almost disappointed in myself that I cant really name to many female artists. So I sit down and go through these pages and learn and explore.I'm trying to see if there is anyone out there who will send me a list of Female Artist to further explore, anyone, anyone. I beg you!

Until then I would like to explore this guy:
Jannis Kounellis, a Greek artist.